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Name: Cierra<3
Birthday: 2/28/1991
Gender: Female
Interests: BW-:-117 CW-:-110 GW-:-100 UGW::85
Starving, Purging, Cutting, Dreaming of someday reaching my goal, exercising, my "ana girls", Paris Hilton, Andriana Lima, Gisele, Tyra Banks, Heidi Klum, Alassandria, but also, my faith, all of my friends, my family, music, movies, track & field, vacationing{which this year I will look hawwt in my swimsuit!}, shopping, boys and yeh, normal things I suppose...
Expertise: my old xanga is www.xanga.com/wanting2bethin_and_focused
Some people knew, so this one is secret, but that has a little of my past on it if you want to check it out you may.
ANA I LOVE YOU DONT LEAVE ME
Message: message me
Member Since:
3/1/2005
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| Hey my gorgeous girls!!
I've decided that I'm just going to stop writing in here now...so this will be my last post on uglyx_xduckling.
I'm deciding whether or not to shut down wanting2bethin_and_focused..but nonetheless, this site will stay open for quite sometime.
I've given out the site to most of you...but if you dont have it, then just leave me a comment here, and I'll get back to you. If you want to be added to the subs list on the new site then simply leave me a comment there
I just posted an entry on the new site containing my measurments & plenty of thinspiration for you all. So check it out!
As for now...goodbye luvsss
xox--Cierra | | |
| Oh my gaaaa...
haha I just realized that I have NO IDEA how to add people to privet lists and whatnot....haha I am so dumb. Sooo...i'll just give the site to everyone on my subs list, then if you dont get it ask me and i'll be sure to let you know!
So today...
CALS:: honestly like -50((I ate mostly fruits and veggies))
WATER FL OZ--not much  ... 17ish--ill drink more later
WORKOUT--(no track today )20 mins...UGH! Im running on the tred later.
So I gotta keep this calorie stuff up for 6 more days and I'll be good!
I didnt have any lunch money today..which was a good thing. But then I was offered cookies & such I refused. I saw Carrie & Cloe start to whisper. & Kayla kept giving me weird looks...bitches
I''ll be commenting you all tonight
xox--Cierra
EDIT::// I forgot to say..Summer wanted me to let you all know for now she is grounded from the computer so she wont be updating for a bit...and also ok, this is how its gunna work. Leave a comment here, and I'll let you know the new site, leave a comment on the new site, and Ill subscribe to you. Thats all...Im gunna go do crunches until I cant do no more! | | |
| Im writing two entries today...this one is public, the next will be privet. I made a new xanga and I will have a link to it on the following PRIVET entry. In case anyone out from school or something reads it. If you cant see the privet entry then leave me a comment and I will be sure to give you the new site.
Eating disorder test (BOLD what applies to you):
~Although people tell me I'm thin (or not fat), I don't believe it.
~I get nervous if I'm unable to exercise.
~[Female] I've missed my period before.
~I think a lot about what I will eat.
~If I weigh myself and I've gained weight, I get upset.
~I would rather eat alone than with family.
~I've heard other people talking about my eating habits.
~I don't like when people tell me to eat.
~No one understands my feelings.
~When I eat, I'm afraid I won't be able to stop.
~I sometimes lie about what I eat. (To family and friends, never on here.)
~ I don't like to be bothered when I'm eating.
~ I would like myself better if I were thinner.
~I have a lot of reading material about dieting and exercise.
~I miss work or school because of my eating habits.
~I can sometimes be depressed and irritable.
~I feel guilty when I eat.
~I avoid some people because they talk to me about the way I eat.
~ I feel bloated and fat.
~ I binge eat. (sometimes)
~I do strange things with my food.
~I get anxious when people watch me eat.
~I am hardly ever satisfied with myself.
~I vomit or take laxatives.
~I want to be thin.
~I would rather die than be fat.
~I fast. (I try)
~I have noticed one or more of the following: COLD HANDS and FEET, DRY SKIN, THINNING HAIR, FRAGILE NAILS, SWOLLEN GLANDS IN NECK, DIZZINESS.
So next is the privet post...I will continue to write in here for about a week until everyone knows that I have a new site, then I will switch<3
xox--Cierra | | |
| Hey Ladies! Ohhhh i have missed you all so much!...I just got back from Ocean City, and wow, was it fun, but eeeeek! I comsumed enough calories to last me 3 years! I thought about Ana constantly, I thought about all of you, I cried at night, but everytime we went out to dinner, or made lunch, I just didnt want to be noticable, or seem like a bitch, ugh, disappointment. Tomorrow I start a I week, 15 cal diet with XOXGREENxDAYXOX . So Im excited about that.
The other day, Friday I believe, before we left, someone said to me "Cierra....you're fat.....((long pause....)).......((very long...))....((really reallly long pause...)).....oh, April Fools." I was stunned, I was shocked, I was pissed off beyond believe, I couldnt just cried my eyes out. I dont care if he said effin "april fools" or not, that hurt like hell...
Thats all I have to say, I hope you gorgeous ladies are doing amazing! I <3 ya.
Oh yes, I need to continue with VS Angels week...I am pleased to present to you, Miss Allesandria Ambrosio....
 
 
 
xox--Cierra
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| So today didnt go well at all...I burned off the 105 cals from lunch at track, butttttt I still have about 1000 OR SO FROM JUST DINNER ALONE! Grossssssssss.
I feel so sick. & I leave for the beach early tomorrow morning.
unbelievable.
I know we all have bad days...but I just keep reminding myself that even though its bound to happen, It still shouldnt, Im so disappointed in myself.
I feel so sick.
& people are home so I cant purge
Im sorry Ana
On the bright side...Shawn asked me to be his girlfriend today & I said yes Yet another reason to work 10x harder...I wouldnt want Shawn going out with a fat chick no do I? nope.
& now continuing with Victoria's Secrect Angels week...here is the stunningly gorgeous...Heidi Klum
 Ribs
 oh my gaa
 look at those collar bones!
xox--Cierra | | |
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